I’m HIV-positive and depressed

July 22, 2021

Dear Pastor,

Good day to you. This is the first time I am writing to you. Last week I climbed a mango tree and put the rope around my neck and was about to jump off. I found myself crying, and I had a change of heart and got out of the mango tree.

I just took out my pen and paper and have decided to write to you, so that the world can read my story. Pastor, I must tell you that I am HIV-positive. I am on my medication. I was diagnosed in 2006 with the virus. I am asking all Jamaicans and the world for help. Sometimes I can't pay my monthly rent and can't buy food or purchase medication. I can't find the money to see my doctor.

When I am in need, I contemplate suicide. Committing suicide will end my troubles. I would like to build a two-bedroom house for my girlfriend and myself, so that both of us can live normal lives. My brother and sister help me at times, but they are not able to do so all the time.


Dear D.,

I am glad that you did not yield to temptation and end your life. Try your best to get a job so you can pay for your medication. I understand that people who are HIV-positive, who take their medication, can function normally. So please try to stay on your medication. If anyone contacts me and is willing to help you and your partner, I will get in touch with you.


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